I am so sick of not being pregnant. I'm so sick of feeling upset when I hear about other people being pregnant or having babies (people I don't know, if you're my friend then I am truly excited). I was actually annoyed today when I walked by a girl with a little baby in my complex. Why am I so cynical about this? She didn't do anything wrong. I hate it. I mad at myself for not wanting to try earlier. It took 8 months to get pregnant with Aubrey. I know that's not a long time but I only had 4 periods during that 8 months (I've always had a very irregular cycle) so I thought it would maybe take about 4 months to get pregnant again (Ever since I had Aubrey, I've had a normal period). I don't want to say how long it's been because it isn't that long but it's agony right now since I don't know how much longer it'll be (It's been 7 months). I sick of having pre-baby weight and trying to keep it on. I mad that I let other people make me feel like I'm too skinny to get pregnant and that's the reason why I'm not. I'm pissed that my period is late (at least 4 days) and the test this morning says I'm not pregnant. I am hoping that posting this will make me look like a fool because I am pregnant even though there's only less than a 1% chance of that. I also mad and confused that don't want to have 2 kids or 3 kids because it's just sounds like misery and yet I'm mad I'm not pregnant. Pregnancy hormones? I want to so bad blame it on this. I'm mad I have to keep buying tampons, even time thinking it'll be the last. I'm also mad because I have so much work to do, it's not even funny and yet I haven't been concentrate on it all day. I don't have time to waste time right now. I know there are far worse problems out there but I just needed to vent. Ellen's on right now so I'm hoping it'll cheer me up.

What, what!

I don't know why this is such a big deal. I do this all the time.



P.S. If you're not impressed, then you clearly don't play basketball.