Black Pound Dog

Friday, February 26, 2010

I am so sick of not being pregnant. I'm so sick of feeling upset when I hear about other people being pregnant or having babies (people I don't know, if you're my friend then I am truly excited). I was actually annoyed today when I walked by a girl with a little baby in my complex. Why am I so cynical about this? She didn't do anything wrong. I hate it. I mad at myself for not wanting to try earlier. It took 8 months to get pregnant with Aubrey. I know that's not a long time but I only had 4 periods during that 8 months (I've always had a very irregular cycle) so I thought it would maybe take about 4 months to get pregnant again (Ever since I had Aubrey, I've had a normal period). I don't want to say how long it's been because it isn't that long but it's agony right now since I don't know how much longer it'll be (It's been 7 months). I sick of having pre-baby weight and trying to keep it on. I mad that I let other people make me feel like I'm too skinny to get pregnant and that's the reason why I'm not. I'm pissed that my period is late (at least 4 days) and the test this morning says I'm not pregnant. I am hoping that posting this will make me look like a fool because I am pregnant even though there's only less than a 1% chance of that. I also mad and confused that don't want to have 2 kids or 3 kids because it's just sounds like misery and yet I'm mad I'm not pregnant. Pregnancy hormones? I want to so bad blame it on this. I'm mad I have to keep buying tampons, even time thinking it'll be the last. I'm also mad because I have so much work to do, it's not even funny and yet I haven't been concentrate on it all day. I don't have time to waste time right now. I know there are far worse problems out there but I just needed to vent. Ellen's on right now so I'm hoping it'll cheer me up.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

What, what!

I don't know why this is such a big deal. I do this all the time.

P.S. If you're not impressed, then you clearly don't play basketball.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Hallelujah

I didn't watch this because I didn't want to cry for two hours but of all the clips I've seen of the performances, this is by far my favorite. It's beautiful and I could listen to it for hours over and over. Nice job guys.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Real or Plastic?

Okay, let's be honest people. Did she look better before or after? (Do you even know who this is? If not, it's Heidi from the Hills.)

I think they could have found a better before picture (because this before does make her chin look big but if you look at the two last pictures below, it's not) but even with these two to compare, I would like to scream BEFORE! I couldn't post the one with her in her bikini because it's just too painful to look at her boobs. Does she look pretty in the after photo? Yes, she does but she doesn't look like anyone special. In the before, she's way, WAY cuter. I'm not even just talking about the plastic surgery differences. I like her darker hair better and her makeup. I love this quote, "I feel like I look like me but a little bit of a different version. Like an upgrade. The best me." No, you don't look like you, you really look like a porn star. I also love the quote, "I was more like a frumpy sidekick to Lauren." Please. (Lauren's the one second from the right.)

I saved these photos just in case I ever teach the Young Women again because this whole thing is crazy to me. She had a brow lift and botox and she's 23! Even Spencer told her it was out of control. I really don't have anything against plastic surgery. Do one, maybe two, procedures if you really want to and get a C cup instead of DDD in hopes of getting an H (seriously she said that and she can't be more than 5'4".). If I ever think about wanting to change things about me, I'm going to look at the article in People and these before and after photos and realize what God gave me is far more beautiful version of me and I don't want to change it like she did. (I really wanted those H's but Heidi convinced me to get more like a DD.)